If I Fall – Ella Harper

Four friends forever… But who will bethere to catch them?

They were best friends at uni. But life was simpler then.
Fifteen years later Connie, a former journalist, now struggles to maintain the veneer of a perfect family life. Jonas, her lawyer husband, is feeling the pressure at work. Personal trainer JJ appears to have it all, but his past is catching up with him. Their other friend, Layla, is a psychotherapist, but her career is unravelling thanks to a difficult and ailing mother.
As the pressure builds, each in their own way must confront their demons. Sometimes things get too much. Sometimes we stumble and fall – and pray someone is there to catch us.

A truly powerful and unforgettable story of love, friendship, and real life, If I Fall is perfect for readers of Alice Peterson, Amanda Prowse and Lianne Moriarty.





I have been in somewhat of a reading slump recently for one reason and another and was looking for something to pull me out of it. I have had this one from Ella Harper on my TBR list for a while and being in somewhat of a crossroads in my life at the moment it looked liked the perfect book choice.

Firstly, I absolutely adore the cover of this one. The colours, the relaxed nature of the friends taking time to just be together and watch the view – beautiful!

The story begins with a letter that is tough to read as it starts with the line I’m really sorry for what I’m about to do…

I struggled at the beginning of this novel as I have to be honest, I didn’t love the characters in their university years. I found them a little bit annoying if truth be told, I was worried that I would continue to struggle throughout the book. Thankfully Ella then brings us back to the current lived of the four friends Connie, Jonas, Layla and JJ and made me fall in love with them all especially JJ who I have to admit to having a huge soft spot for.

Every one of the four characters in this book is going through a very tough life issue, whether it’s incredible work stress & depression, relationship troubles, learning to deal with a past life or the stress of dealing with a sick relative. What I found fantastic about Ella’s writing is the fact that the issues mentioned in the book were so well written. I have some experience of a few of the issues in this book, whether personally or through friends and I was taken on a rollercoaster of emotions throughout as the feelings and emotions portrayed were just so strikingly true.

Layla’s story broke my heart so many times, I can only imagine Ella has had some experience of dealing with an ill relative as the rollercoaster of emotions in Layla’s story as she watched her mother decline further into her illness was incredibly powerful. I can imagine that anyone who has cared for an ailing relative can understand her moments of anger, fear, and frustration.

I do think it’s worth mentioning without spoiling the story that there are two situations in the book which could be triggering for some who have been victims of abusive relationships in various forms. While the two situations were sensitively and emotionally written, I do think it’s worth noting. While I think these need to be talked about in novels like If I Fall, I think they need to be handled sensitively like has been done here, without taking away any of the edge or power that the storylines had. They were so emotive and Connie’s story especially struck a chord with me and I was willing her to find a way to sort things out.

This was an up until 2am novel and by the time I finished the last page I was wrung out. I had been through all the emotions from fear to compassion, sadness and anger to happiness. I had moments of just wanting to reach into the book and rescue the from the hurt and pain. But one thing I found in this novel was hope, hope that things can be overcome with the right love and support things came improve and while nothing is a quick fix there is light in the darkness.

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Thank you to Canelo & NetGalley for providing me this book in exchange for an honest review.



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